Slash/hetro fic, possibly adult: "I Wish I Could Love You More"

Chapter 2: Part 2

Shane yawned as he walked into the room. He had an headache but thankfully wasen't feeling sick. He thought back to yesterday and made a mental note to call Brian as soon as possible. He enoyed staying at Nicky's, it were much more cleaner than home with all his older and younger sibblings. Then he suddenly stooped as he saw Nicky sitting at the kitchen table without a shirt. Unfortunly he knew very well what was happening down in his groin. In an action to hide his bulge, he hurried over to the fridge and started taking out milk and bread. Nicky haden't noticed that Shane came in but he looked up when he heard him opening the fridge. His heart sank as he had hoped it would have been Rebecca. Then a wave of jelously float over him but he pushed back those irrational feelings.

"Hi Shane! Did you sleep well?" Nicky asked and watched Shane's back.

"Yeah, I did. How're you feeling today? You drank quite much yesterday," Shane replied and just turned his head so he could see Nicky. He grinned and said that he haden't thrown up which must be a good sign. However, he wondered why Shane wasen't facing him. The other man didn't reply and returned to his breakfast so Nicky shrugged and thought that it certainly wasen't anything then.

In another part of the city:
Rebecca hurried down the stairs. She knew that she had made a terrible misstake. She didn't know if Nicky would be worried or pissed. In her mind thoughts about telling or not telling him cricled around. She got into her car and drove off, heading towards Nicky's place. Unfortunly she got stopped in a police control. When the police officier checked her alcholol levels it got revalved that she still had too much alcohol in her blood left. Rebecca tried to explain but the officer just shook his head and gave her a bill and confiscate her driving lincense. Rebecca drove to Nicky's place with dark thoughts in her mind. As she parked the car she went up the stairs and locked up the door. At the same time sat Shane and ate while Nicky got dressed in the master bedroom. Shane heard the door and got up, curious about who it was, and walked into the hallway. He saw Rebecca and his eyes got darker.

"So where have you been Bec?" Shane asked and crossed his arms over his chest. Rebecca froze and looked over to Shane who stood there shirtless. Imidiately(sp?) she feared the worse.

"None of your bussiness. Why are you here in the first place?" she replied acidly. However, Nicky heard them talking from the bedroom so he huried to the hallway. He stoped a moment and felt that something wasen't right between Rebecca and Shane.

"Rebecca? Honey, where have you been? I have been so worried!" Nicky said and stepped between them and embraced Rebecca in a hug. She however responded coldly and gave his unzipped pants a dark look. Nicky broke the hug and frowned at her. Then he looked over to Shane who were staring with disgust at Rebecca and him.

"So? Was it good to try something new? I bet your arse hurts a little," Rebecca said sarcasticly and stared with disgust at the other men. She had on the other hand pushed back all thoughs about telling Nicky about her little adventure... Nicky burst out in laugher which caused her to look a bit unsurely at him.

"You thought..? Me and Shane? Bec, you have a dirty mind! We are only friends, alright? He just stayed here over the night which you didn't," Nicky said and looked innocently at her (it wasen't so convincing however!). Rebecca blushed and remembered her night with J. She decided that she better didn't say anything about it. On the other hand Shane felt his heart sink when he heard Nicky's words. He had got a funny feeling when Rebecca revalved her suspicous but now he felt that everything where back to normal.

"Oh, sorry Nic. I don't know what got into my mind," she said and blushed. Nicky just grinned while Shane returned to the kitchen with a sigh.

"So where were you?" Nicky asked later on when he was finished dressing. Rebecca lain on the bed and looked up when he asked "that" question she had feared.

"I was a little bit drunk yesterday so I went home to my place as it were closest," she lied to Nicky without feeling any guilt.

Nicky frowned because he had thought that his place was closet to the club but he didn't replied. He then turned around and asked Rebecca if he looked good. She smiled and said that it didn't matter what he were wearing, everything suited him perfectly. Nicky smiled sheepisly and kissed her. Then he went out of the room. Shane had already walked to Louis, their managers', office. Rebecca stayed in bed because it was her free day today. Then he phone beeped and she saw that she had got a message from J. He wanted to talk before he returned to UK. Rebecca lain the phone to the side and though about it. She loved Nicky but J was more... intresting. She finally remembered what had happened yesterday, even though it was still a bit blurry.
J looked at his phone deep in thought. He didn't knew Rebecca's guy but he couldn't think that he could stand a chance against himself. He glanced over at Ritchie and Scott. They were siting at the editorial staff for a teen magazine, waiting for an interview. J didn't like that Scott were giving him acid glances all the time and if he continued Shane would feel pain soon. Then Sean came in, wearing two cups of coffe. He gave one of them to J and kept the other one for himself.

"Is everything ok, J?" Sean suddenly asked. J looked up from his phone a bit taken off guard.

"Yeah, sure. Everything is alright!" J said and smiled. Sean got quiet again and sipped on his coffe.

10 minutes later the door opened and their mananger came in. He said that it was their turn. Then he frowned when he noticed that Abs wasen't there. He asked the lads but noone knew where he was. Sean said that Abs had been in the shower when he left. Ritchie then started to laugh and suggested that Abs probaly were still in the shower. Even Scott started to smile at that. He were not his usual self today because of J's affair. He didn't know why he reacted like that. However, he thought it could be because he dosen't like people who are unfaiteful to their loved ones. Their manager Bob Herbert shook his head.

"J, call Abs and make sure he'll be here NOW," Bob said and returned into the office to explain why they were going to be late. J took up his phone and called Abs. Luckily Abs had his the phone on. They chatted, or more precise: shouted, with each other and then Abs said that he'll be there in no time. Ritchie asked what Abs had for an excuse this time.

"He thought we would be here 9'o clock not 8'o clock," J said and rolled his eyes.

"J, you was the one who were supposed to get him here," Scott said and J glared at him.

"I've better things to do," J replied. Scott rolled his eyes and said that J didn't have any sense for responsibility. "That was enough," thought J and took out his eye ring. Sean slided bakwards before J flew onto Scott. Bob heard the shouting and sighed. "Not again!" he thought to himself and runned back into the room.

[TBC]

lads u shouldn't be fighting! :) love the add jake! :D

Thanks. However it looks like there're still probs with the font. *frows*

Perhaps it'll help if we return to the default font? It's woth a try.

Chapter 2: part 3
 
 

Bob sucseeded to stir up the fight and end it. He scoled them for it but, as usally they weren't listening to him. Some time later Abs arrived and they could finally get on with the interview. At the same time Shane and Nicky were visting Vincet at the hospital. Their manager Louis Wahls had called them and told them some bad news; Vincet was too sick for a profesional carrer as an singer. Shane and Nicky was a bit sad about it but, Vincet'd his best to cheer them up. While Nicky sat and talked to Vincet, Shane told Louis about Brian. Louis was however, not convinced that Brian would be a good complement to the band until he had heard him with his own ears. Shane nodded and dialed Brian so they could scedule an audtion. Brian was thrilled about the idea and they decided to meet up by 2pm today. Then they hung up and Shane went in to Vincet. They sat down and spoke quietly about his condtion.
"I'm sorry guys for doing this to you and the band," Vincet said and sobbed a little.
"It's ok fellow, just try to get better ok? We'll manage," Shane said and Vincet shook his head.
"I won't get better... Shane? Can't you drive down to Sligo and try to get my cousin Mark into the band? He has a great voice but is a bit shy," Vincet asked. Shane shook his head. 'Not Mark. Anyone besides Mark' he thought.
"No..."
"Who's Mark?" Nicky asked and Vincet glanced over at him. Then then told him about Mark Feehily. Tall, black hair and blue eyes. Shane and Mark hadn't gone along so well in school, or in other words Shane bullied him. Shane sat there saddly. He was now ashamed for what he had done. Louis also heard the conversation and said that it could be worth to check out. Shane felt defeated and just hang with his head. They got out of the hospital. Nicky glared at Shane because he disliked bullies very much. Shane felt his look and it burned like hell. He couldn't stand it so he turned to Nicky and told him how sorry he was for what he had done to Mark back in the days. How he had lost his best friend Kian Egan because of it. Nicky softed a little but he still wanted to meet this guy. "Don't say that to me, say it to Mark. He's the one who needs to hear it," Nicky said and gave Shane an harsh look. Nicky hoped that Shane and Mark would come on good footh with each other.

After the interview Five drove down to the airport and got ready to leave Ireland. In the waithall Ritchie and Scott met Jen and Anatolia again. They chatted along and come to the conclusion that they should been on the same flight. J still missed Rebecca, which was werid as it was just an one night stand. It had just been something with her... Soon their plane landed and they could board it. The guys and the girls got seperated as they sat on diffrent seats in the plane. The aircraft lifted off and they left the ground behind. At the same time Rebecca was thinking on J. He had been exciting, wild, bad and new. She knew that she had to care of Nicky but she couldn't stop her thoughts from running.

At 2pm Louis, Shane and Nicky pulled up outside Brian's parents house. Brian was already waiting for them and smiled at them. He got into the car and sat down beside Nicky. Brian and he started talking even though he had difficult to keep himself from mentioning Rebecca's affair. It would hurt Nicky too bad. After some time they arrived to the studio and went in. In the studio Louis told Brian to sing something for them so he sang Backstreet Boys "I Want it That Way". Louis was very impressed by it, which Shane could see. He grinned broudly. Nicky had heard Brian sing before but this time he could sense a difference as Brian putted in more than he used to. Now they just had to convince Mark and find another guy and they were a band to count with.

[TBC]

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aww shane you shouldn't have bullied poor little marky! :( but i hope they become friends! :) i love that backstreet boys song :D  love this add :)

Ch2: pt4

Shane stared miserably out through the window of the car. He sat beside Nicky and Brian. It had been a tight fit but eventually they succeeded  to squezze them all in. Louis was driving and one of their bodyguards, Paul, was siting in the front seat. They were driving down to Sligo to meet up with Mark, despite Shane's protests. They had been driving for 2 hours when they drove into the familair town. Louis turned his head and asked Shane if he knew the way to Mark's place and Shane answered with a sigh. After about 20 minutes they drove up to Mark's parents house. Shane hoped they would have moved or at least Mark but, he was proven wrong. The first thing they saw when they climbed out of the car was Mark and another blonde, short guy playing soccer in the garden. Shane recognised the other dude as Kian John Francis Egan, his ex-best friend. He gulped as they walked up to them.

"Hello there! You're Mark I presume?" Louis asked polite.

The brunette nodded and let his eyes run over the guys. He got a scared face when he saw Shane. Kian also took a look at them. He on the other hand gave Shane a dark look.

"Good. My name's Louis Wahls. May we come in?" he asked.

"Yeah sure," Mark said and lead them up to the front door. As they was about to go in Kian turned to the small group and said:

"Leave the rats outside, ok?" Shane's eyes sparked at Kian. Brian noticed the sudden change and stepped in-between them.

"There's no need in being rude and insult each other," Brian said to Kian who took a look at him. Then he decided that he should let it go (for now) as Brian were almost twice his size.

They got into the warm kitchen and sat down; Mark as far as he could from Shane. Nicky started to notice the strange behaviour and wondered if he had been a bit to quick with this. Louis spoke to Mark's mum, Marie about Mark. He hadn't heard Mark yet but Vincet had a good ear so he trusted his word. Mark and Kian sat in one corner of the table while Shane and Nicky sat in the other one. Bryan sat in the middle and watched them carefully. He didn't like when people was mean towards each other. As they sat there suddenly Mark's younger brothers Barry and Colin came down. They stared at the many persons in the house and Nicky couldn't help but smile. Colin walked up to Mark and asked him why it was so many people here. Mark shrugged his shoulders and said that he didn't know. After a moment Louis returned to the room with Marie. He had explained why he was here for her and she had been happy for it. She knew Mark was a good singer but she was a bit worried for how Shane would threat her son. Louis had told her that he would'd his best to make them get along if Mark had a voice that was worth the effort. He waved at Mark who walked up to him and then they went out of the room. Kian glared at Shane who didn't respond. He had been talking with Nicky and Brian about it and now he feelt that it was time to burry the warhamer. When Louis and Mark returned the other guys could see that he was happy with Mark's efffort. Marie invented them for dinner and afterwards Brian and Nicky palyed some soccer in the garden. Shane walked over to Kian and Mark. The blonde glared at him while Mark avoided eye contact.

"Mark, I'm sorry. I really am. Every day since graduation I've been thinking about and become ashamed about how I treated you. Kian, please can't we try to repair our friendship?" Shane said honestly and wobbled a little at his voice. Kian shot him another glare and Mark looked up.

"You don't think you can... " Kian started but Mark interupted him.

"Shane, you made my high school years a living hell. I just can't forget all about it but I'm willing to give you a chance, as we are going to be in this band together," Mark said and glanced at Kian who just shrugged his shoulders. Shane sighed of relife. He hadn't feelt this good in years. Then Nicky and Brian came up to them. Nicky sat down and introduced himself and Brian as they hadn't been introduced before. Kian shook their hands and nodded. Nicky sat at the benche and glanced over at Shane who didn't look so down as before. He hoped it was a good sign. Kian and he started to talk while Brian spoke to Mark. Shane stood there awhile and looked left out so Nicky signed at him to sit down. The brunette nodded and sat down and tried to repair his friendship with Kian. Marie and Louis watched them from a distance, both deep in thought. Then Marie looked at the clock and said that Mark's dad, Oliver would be home in a few minutes. Louis nodded and said that he could need to speak to him about the band too. As they were walking towards the kitchen Marie turned to Louis with a small frown.

"Do you think that Marcus will be ok? With Shane and all that..." she asked worried. Louis raised his eye brow at the name first but then he thought that Mark were probaly short for Marcus just like Nicky were short for Nicholas.

"If you're not sure about it... " he begun, frighted for the answear. He really wanted Mark in the band beacuse he was a very promising lead vocalist. Marie shook her head and Louis let out a sigh of relife.

"It's a once in a lifetime chance, I won't take it away from him. But I'm his mom and are therfore concerned of his wealthfare. If only Kian could be in the band too..." she sighed and then lighted up. She walked back to the window and Louis followed her confused. "Mr Wahls, don't you think that they already look like a boyband?" she said and pointed over to the lads. Louis had to admit that they certainly looked good that way. However he couldn't have a guy in the band just beacuse he looked cute, he had to sing well too. Marie nodded as she understood it but, then she told Louis that Kian had been in one of the school musicals at Summerhill College back in the days, and he did a good job. Louis nodded for himself. He might have to hear Kian too...

"So do you have girlfrend or boyfriend, Kian?" Bryan asked. Kian gave him a glare and told that he definitely wasn't gay. The he glanced over at Shane with an evil look and the older man swallowed. 'No Kian, please. I told you that in confidence! It was supposed to be a secret' Shane thought panickly.

"You know I've a girlfriend. Her name's Claire," Kian then said and Shane sighed of relife. Bryan nodded and excused hmself from jumping to conclusions. Shane putted in that it was good that Bryan were open-minded about things.

"And that's good for you, right Shaney?" Kian mumbled. Then Louis come out and asked if he could speak to Kian. The blonde got up a bit currious and followed him in again. Then they heard a car driving up. Mark grinned and got up and hurried down the path to the driveway. An older man got out of the car and Mark started to talk with him. Shane recognised the man as Oliver Feehily, Mark's dad. The man looked over at the group and Mark showed him up to them. Oliver gave Shane a dark look who then looked down at his feeth. This wasn't going to be easy. The man looked over at Bryan and Nicky so Mark introduced him to them. A little moment later Louis walked out of the house with Kian and Marie. He nodded at Oliver while Marie gave her husband a kiss. Then Oliver and Louis walked aside to talk about the band. Kian sat down with a dreamy look at his face.

"How'd it go?" Nicky asked even though he thought he already knew the answear. Kian grinned at him.

"I'm going to be in the band! Now Shane I can keep my eyes on you so that you don't hurt Mark again," Kian said and turned to Shane. The brunette groaned and hoped this would end well.

[TBC]

Disclaimer: This's not the real way on how things started for Westlife but it's a fictional story.

awww glad shane and mark can sort things out between them selfs :) can't wait till the next add!! :D

Ok, here comes the new part. This add is a bit short and mainly about Five but I hope you'll like it anyway. :)

Ch.2 Pt.5
 
London
The flight from Dublin was short and soon the lads were back in UK. They got of the plane and walked down to the conveyor belt to collect their suitcases. J was quiet and deep in thought while Ritchie and Abs were chatting and laughing. Scott searched the hall for Jen. He felt that they were going along well and he hoped they would become friends. In another part of the airport Anatolia and Jen were talking to their friend Denise. They had got to know each other via the official Five board were her username was Angelz. She couldn’t believe that they had met Ritchie, Scott and J.
 
“OMG, you’re fucking lucky so sos!” she shrieked. “I hope you asked them for J’s phone number,” she then added.
 
Anatolia and Jen giggled. Denise was totally obsessed by J. Then Jen remembered the “Rebecca incident” and she looked a bit unsurely at Denise. She wondered how her friend would take the news. At the same time Scott stood by the baggage claims and spotted Jen by the other wall. He asked if Ritchie could keep his eyes out for his luggage and then he walked over to the girls. Ritchie was just about to protest when Scott left so he returned with a sour look his gaze to the trail. Scott had soon walked up to Jen and Anatolia. Denise stared shocked at him. She had never been this close to one of the lads. Jen gave Scott a friendly hug and then she introduced him for Denise. They shook hands and chatted for a moment. Then Abs came up to him and said that they had to go to the hotel now. Scott nodded and turned to leave but then Denise asked if she could get his autograph. Scott smiled and signed a piece of paper she gave to him. Then she asked, which hotel they were staying at.
 
“We are not going to tell ya, babe. You may stalk us,” Abs said and winked. Denise gave him an innocent look and the guys leaved. Then Jen turned to Anatolia and asked if they also should get back to their place. She didn’t responded and her eyes were fixed at Ritchie.
 
“Hello? Earth to Anatolia, do you read me?” Jen said and waved with her hand in front of Anatolia’s face.
 
“Huh? What’d you say? I was… occupied,” Anatolia explained and blushed slightly.
 
None of them realised that Denise had walked away from them. She convinced herself that it wasn’t stalking. She just wanted to meet J for real. She followed them out of the airport and saw that they got into a cab. She took up a notebook and wrote the number of the car down…
At the same time Jen asked Anatolia what she had been thinking about earlier. Jen was worried for what it could be. They started to walk and Anatolia was quiet and then she looked up.
 
“You know how much I like Ritchie, right? As a fan I mean. However, now I think I’m evolving feelings for him. It’s confusing,” Anatolia answered.
 
“Oh, Ana. He’s a famous pop star! Do you really think it can ever be anything between you two?” Jen said and watched her friend who was back in her own little world again.
 
At the same time in Ireland, Rebecca was reading through some sites at the Internet. She had realised that J was quite rich. It made her wonder, she loved Nicky but lately he was tiresome. J was exciting and had showed feelings for her. It made her wonder if he was a better shot than Nicky. She highly doubted that Nicky and Shane’s so-called “band” would ever work out. He was probably going to get a real job when this idea was out of his mind. Rebecca didn’t know so much about what Nicky really was doing actually. She didn’t know they had a manager and that it actually could work out. At the moment everything she had on her mind was money and fame. She picked up the phone and dialled J.
 
Denise had traced the lads to one of the more expensive hotels in London and sat now in the lobby unsure about what to do. She wondered what had got into her hand and a bit frighten that her obsession had overtaken her common sense. As she sat there J came down the stairs and went to the bar. He didn’t saw Denise who stared at him. As J sat down by the bar, Denise walked slowly over to him. Then his phone went off so he answered. Denise stooped and listened to what he was saying down the phone. Her heart was pumping fast and she felt a bit dizzy. Then she realised that he was talking to some girl. They seemed to have a personal relation and that made her a bit upset. She caught the name “Rebecca” and “Nicky”. None of them gave her any clue but she was going to find out and hunt that bitch down for stealing her man. J looked up at Denise and raised his eyebrow. She was a good-looking girl and for a moment his thoughts on Rebecca was gone.
 
“May I buy you a drink miss…?” he asked and looked at her.
 
“You can call me Angelz and I would really like to have a Strawberry Desire,” Denise said and sat down with a smile.
 
“Ok then, Angelz. Hey bartender! One pint of Forster and a Strawberry Desire for the lady,” J said and winked at Denise. She smiled slyly, this was working out wonderfully…
 
[To be continued]
 
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Ch 2:pt 6

Kian couldn't wait to tell Claire about the good news. However, he was worried that she would leave him because of it. These thoughts ran through his mind as he drove down the road. Shane, Mark, Nicky and Brian had stayed at Mark's place as he was going to show them around town. Kian didn't know nor did he care what Shane was going to do. Kian could sometimes hardly understand why he didn't stop Shane from bulling Mark when he saw the first sign of it. He wondered why Mark had forgiven Shane so lightly. It would take a long time before Kian was ready to take that step. He was still fuming with anger because of how Shane treated Mark in school. As he pulled up outside Claire house he cut the engine and then got out of the car. With heavy steps he went up to the doorstep. He felt a bit scared for her reaction and also because he didn't got along well with her dad. He raised his hand and knocked on the door. When he had waited a few minutes Grace's mom Anne opened the door. She smiled at him and gestured at him to come in. As he took of his light jacket he took a look around the hall. He watched as the clock struck 12 and a bird get out yelling "Ko-ko, Ko-ko", which brought a smile to his face.
 
"Can I get you something; tea, coffee?" Anne asked.
 
"No, thanks. Where's Claire?" Kian asked and looked around.
 
"She's out in the garden with Ronan," Anne replied.
 
Kian nodded and walked out to the garden. He saw Claire and her brothers at the other side. He took a deep breath before he walked down the path and smelled the fresh smell of the roses. It was a very nice day he had to admit. Kian watched as Ronan thrown a rugby ball to the youngest member of the family, Jake before he approached the siblings. Jake thrown himself to the ground but missed the ball. Ronan shook his head and looked up as he saw Kian. He poked Claire who looked up from her book. She squealed ecstatically and ran up to Kian. Jake got up and looked at them with a grouchy look at his face.
 
"Oh, great here we go again..." he mumbled. Ronan playfully hit him over the arm before he walked up to the loved up couple. Kian kissed Claire and she kissed him back as Ronan walked up to them. The blonde man then looked into her eyes and she smiled back at him. There was no-one else Kian loved this much. He loved her so much that he was frightened for how he would be without her. He hugged her tightly and kissed her once again.
 
"Oi, get a room!" Ronan teased.
 
"Hey, calm down O'Gara. I'm just doing what I'm supposed to do," Kian replied with a cheeky undertone. The other guy just rolled his eyes while Jake climbed up in the tree, which forced Ronan to keep his eyes on the younger boy. Claire broke off from the embrace and watched him with her blue eyes. At that moment Kian knew that Claire suspected that he had something serious to say. Kian sighed and decided not to beat about the bush and get right to the point.
 
"Claire I've got some good news. I auditioned today for a new pop group and I got it! You know how much I have wanted to get into the music industry and I thought that my dream was never going to come true when I hurt my thumb. I just want to be sure that you still want to be my girlfriend even though..." Kian said but Claire silenced him.
 
"Quiet. I love you with all my heart and if you want to do this I'll support you. So yes, I still want to be your girl," she said and kissed Kian's shocked face.
 
"But does you really think that you can handle being in the 'lime light'?" Kian continued.
 
"If you can, I can." Kian smiled at these words. It just made him love her more so he kissed her again. Then they got interrupted when Ronan started to shout at Jake. He wanted him to climb down again but he just poked out his tongue at his older brother. Kian laughed as he known how scared Ronan was of highs. He walked up to the tree and started climbing. Jake didn't thought it was funny any more so climbed down. After a moment they were both at the ground and Ronan scolded Jake for climbing the tree. Claire rolled her eyes and walked away from her brothers with Kian. He on the other hand was a bit worried that her dad would find them. He still remembered the last time her dad caught them. It was one moment when Kian had feared for his life. Christian, Claire's dad, had been furious at him then. So he had decided to take it really slow. Claire giggled at Kian's expression.
 
"Dad won't come home until 8 pm so you're safe for now,” she said with a smile. Kian smiled back at her before they lain down at the grass. Claire rested her head against his chest as they watched the clouds. Kian stroked his hand through her shoulder length blonde hair.
 
Meantime Shane walked down the street. He loved to just stroll around like this in his hometown. He sighed at then thought that he maybe wouldn’t be able to do it when he became famous. He remembered when he was a kid and ran up and down this hill on his brand new bike. He smiled at the memory. It had been funny until he lost the balance and wounded himself. He watched the small pink house at the foot of the hill and walked down ‘memory lane’ again. In that house Amy Waters had lived. They went to school together and they had been very close friends. He also remembered what he had asked her to do and now he felt ashamed for it. It was just plan stupid. Shane sat down at the bench and sighed. He preferred to forget his school years; he had been an asshole all the time it struck him. His sister Grace had suffered from his rude behaviour, which made them fall out with each other. As he sat there a familiar face came into his sight. Shane looked up and smiled at her.
 
“Hi Shane! How’s it going?” Amy asked and sat down.
 
“Ok, I guess. The band’s starting to take shape now,” Shane replied and smiled at her. Amy had long, curly brown hair and brown eyes. She was cute but it left Shane unaffected. She knew about his secret, which only a few persons did.
 
“Yes, I heard about Vic. I’m sorry for him and you,” Amy said with a sad look at her face. Vincent was her cousin and they were close.
 
“Thanks. We have a new guy called Brian in the band now and then we have Kian and Mark…” Amy stared shocked at him. She knew that he and Kian didn’t gone along well so she couldn’t understand how this would work. And Mark! This couldn’t end well she thought.
 
“Ok, Ehum… so how is it with them?” she asked him.
 
“Ok, I guess. We’re going to try to work things out. Mark have already taken the first step but it’s more difficult with Kian.” Amy nodded and stroked him over the head. Shane looked up at her. He hoped she would keep quite about his secret, hopefully better than Kian. He feared that the blonde would let it slip just to take out revenge on Shane for Mark’s sake. Amy noticed that he was quiet and she thought she knew why. She took a deep breath and tried to put together a sentence he wouldn’t become too offended about.
 
“Shane you should really tell them. It’ll leak out eventually,” she said after a moment. Shane startled and looked freighted at her. The thought had crossed his mind but he didn’t want to think about it nor come clean about it either. However, he knew that she was right. As he was going to become an official person the press was going to dig deep into his past and maybe find out about it. He tried to remember other person who knew about it. Ok, it was his mom and dad, his older brother Finbarr and Kian. That was everyone he thought. Or was it any more persons? He knew that his family would keep quiet about it. They maybe even felt ashamed off it. But Kian… he wasn’t sure on him.
 
“You’re right. But where shall I start? Mom and dad already known but how’ll the band react for example? Or Louis? Oh my, he’s so going to kick me out of the band,” Shane said and started to sob.
 
Amy lain her arm around his neck and let him cry against her chest. She wondered how people would think when they saw her and Shane like this. She giggled a little and thought that they would probably react just like the people in school did. As she and Shane had been so good friends, the other pupils had suspected that they were together. Shane took benefit off it and used her as a “cover story”. She didn’t mind the first years but after some time she felt like it kept her down. Because of this they had “broke-up” during their senior year. Amy didn’t know if Shane had met someone but she hoped he had. Keeping his sexuality hidden wasn’t good for him. Because if he can’t come clean about it, will he ever find happiness for himself? They sat there for a moment until Shane had calmed down from his emotional outburst. He felt a bit ashamed of himself because of it too. They talked a little before they got up from the bench and said goodbye to each other. After that they went into different directions. Shane walked up the road to the Carlton Café, which were owned and run by his parents Mae and Patrick Filan. He went in through the doors and waved over to his mom whom stood at the cash point. She smiled at him and he went up to her.
 
“Hi mom! How’s business going?” Shane asked and looked over the counter.
 
“It’s going well, son. How is with you? Have you been crying?” Mae asked worried. Shane bent his head down and nodded quietly. His mom asked if he wanted to talk about it. Shane shook his head and said that he was ok and that she didn’t have to worry. Mae nodded and Shane went to look after his dad. However he couldn’t find him and when Liam wasn’t there either he supposed that they were busy with the horses. Then saw his little sister Grace and walked up to her.
 
“Hi brother! Where have you been the last couple of weeks?” she asked and looked suspiciously at him. Shane licked his lips and took on a cheerfully voice. He and Grace were still not on good terms with each other.
 
“Hi Grace. Well, I’ve been in Dublin. Me, Vincent and Nicky has been busy with the band. Funny enough we just found one new member up there, the rest did we find here in Sligo,” Shane told her. Grace raised her eyebrows and asked if it was someone she knew. Shane took a deep breath and told her that it was Kian and Mark. Grace just stared at him and then she started to laugh. Shane got a bit annoyed of it.
 
“Mark and Kian? I would love to see how you succeed to put up with those guys! I doubt your band will hold more than a year! “ Grace said and shook her head. Shane scowled at her and then he said that they would hold more than a year, they’ll hold more than every other boy band! Grace just shrugged and returned to work. Mae gave her son a dark look as his outburst with Grace had scared some of the customers away. Shane gave her an excusing look and left quietly.
 
 
-*-*-*-
 
 
Rebecca checked her phone and saw that it was Nicky who called her again. He sighed and hooked up once again. This was the third time he had tried to reach her she counted. She knew that was she was about to do was stupid and irrational but she couldn’t help herself. Rebecca was quite an “expensive” girlfriend. It had been ok as long as Nicky played in Leeds United FC but when they dropped him, he could no longer afford her extravaganza life-style. That was when she started drinking. Now she had a chance to once again be the coolest chick on the street. She had packed all her things, left a note for Nicky and then called J. He got very happy and promised to pick her up at the airport. Rebecca parked the car and walked up to the doors of Dublin Airport. She was about to take the biggest step in her life and she didn’t regret it. She didn’t even thought about Nicky. The last thing she did was to delete his number from her phone and then block it.
 
Mark, Nicky, Brian and Mark’s dad Oliver had been walking around in town for some time now as Mark was very eager to show his new found friends everything he liked with Sligo. They had stooped at a café to rest their feet and were now talking about stuff. As the other guys talked Nicky tried to reach Rebecca and keep up a conversation with the other lads. But when he heard the voice in other line explain for him that his number had been blocked, his heart sank. She was leaving, which was one thing he never thought she was going to do. He sat there and watched his phone as the message repeated itself on Gaelic, English and even Spanish. Brian noticed the sudden change in Nicky’s mood as he stooped answering them. He wondered what had happen.
 
“How’s mate? Isn’t she answering? Maybe she had her phone off. Saving battery y’know,” Brian said and Nicky glared at him. Brian, totally oblivious to what was happening, continued to talk.
 
“Oh, shut up McFadden!” Nicky suddenly shouted. Brian stooped talking, shocked at Nicky’s outburst.
 
“What? What’s it Nico?” Brian asked and looked worried at his friend.
 
“Eh, forget it,” Nicky said and leaved. Brian raised his eyebrow and followed Nicky to the restrooms. As he walked in he heard Nicky sobbing from one of the toilets. Brian walked to the correct door and knocked on it.
 
“Go away!” Nicky yelled from the other side, his voice cracking.
 
“No, I won’t. What’s it Nix? Do you need to talk?” Brian asked through the door. He knew that he probably looked stupid, maybe even a little bit gay but he was worried. Nicky stooped sobbing and opened the door. Brian wrapped cautious his arm around the blonde as he didn’t know what else to do. Nicky let him do that and soon they were hugging each other. Brian tried to sooth Nicky who cried quietly against his shoulder. Brian was used to Nicky’s emotional outbursts as he was an emotional guy but he had never seen his friend in this shape before. Nicky backed away and Brian let go off him. They stood there in an awkward silence before Nicky took a deep breath.
 
“She’s leaving me Bri, I know it. I don’t know what to do…” Nicky began and struggled with the words.
 
“Rebecca? Awww… poor you mate. She doesn’t know what she losses. Don’t be sad just wrap yourself together again. There’s plenty of women’s who just would love a little bit of the Byrne love, aye?” Brian said and smiled.
 
“Thanks Brian. I don’t know what I would do without you.” Brian gave him a funny look.
 
“You do know that that sounded a bit gay, right?” Then Nicky laughed and they went back to the others again. At the table Kian and Shane had joined them. They were at the moment sitting on different sides of the table, shooting glares at each other. Mark’s dad nodded when Nicky and Brian came up to them and asked if it was time to leave. Everyone agreed on that.
 
“Alright then, so who’s sleeping over at whom?” Oliver asked. Shane said that Nicky could sleep over at his place while Brian asked if he could stay with Mark. Oliver nodded and said that they’ll need to talk to their respective parents but he didn’t thought there would be any problems. When that was over and done, the gang got up from their chairs and went out in the chilly evening.
 
[TBC]

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great add! :D i worried what that denise is going to do to rebecca =/ xXx

Note: Lyrics from "I Need Love" by *N Sync is included in this add.
 
--*Slash warning!*--
 
Chapter 3: Secrets can't be burried forever...
Part 1 (15+)
 
I need love, you need love
We all really need love
All I want, all I need
We all really need love
 
I just wanna tell you how I feel
I just wanna have a love that's real
How can I stop this burning desire
I can see that you're the one for me
You're the only one I really need
I need a love that burns like a fire
 
Shane sat by the wondow and looked out on the sunny day. He halfly listened to Bryan who had a disscussion with Kian about something, Shane didn't care. He thought about what Amy had told him but was unsure on how he should go on from there. Deep inside his heart he knew that she was right but obsticles of fear kept him away. Then he heard the door swing open and Nicky came in with his cousin and their co-mananger; Ronan Keating. Nicky smiled at them and sat down. He pooked Mark in the side as he had fall asleep. Mark twitched awake and looked sleeply around. Yesterday had been quite a late night and Mark hadn't got so much sleep. He looked over at Kian who just shook his head. Kian hadn't went out with the others as he still couldn't stand Shane. However, he hadn't said that and instead lied that he was going on a date with Claire. A date he didn't went too.
 
"Alright lads, what's the craic?" Ronan asked and looked around. Ronan was in a boyband called Boyzone, which were and had been quite succsessful the last couple of years. Now he were helping the lads in Westside (even though Ronan thought Westlife would be a much better name) in their carrers.
 
"Alright Ro. What're we going to do today?" Kian asked eagerly. Bryan groaned and rolled his eyes. He thought it was nice that they had some time off and he hated that Kian all the time wanted to do something. Kian ignored Bryan's unspoken complain and looked at Ronan who laughed.
 
"Well, today you're going to your first interview! Get ready lads, the limo leaves in 10 minutes. The interview is for a magazine called 'Seventeen'. Who knows, if you're lucky you may even be on the front cover," Ronan said and winked. Kian cheered and went up first of them all. Nicky laughed and followed after him. With a sigh and a smile Bryan got up, followed by Mark. Bryan was quite curious on how it would be to get interviewed and secretly he hoped they would made it to the front cover too. Mark crooned on a song they had been praticed for their summer tour as support act for Boyzone. The song were called "Swear it Again". Shane on the other hand walked nervously up to Ronan and shook his shoulder as he was shorter than him. Ronan turned to Shane and smiled.
 
"Are you nervous for the interview?" Ronan asked with his Irish accent. Shane nodded and Ronan gave him a pad on the shoulder. He then told Shane that he had also been nervous for his first interview with Boyzone but that it actually turned out quite good. Shane nodded slowly and then he looked up.
 
"But Ronan, are they going to ask... eh... intime questions?" Shane asked.
 
"Not too intime Shaney boy. Perhaps they're going to ask you about your lovelife. I don't think they're going to ask questions about the length of your... eh... you know," Ronan said and laughed nervously. Shane gave him a sour look and Ronan stooped laughing and then he smiled warmly.
 
"C'mon, don't be nervous. Just try to make a good impression. Y'know we have been praticing this, right?" Ronan said and leaved a divided Shane behind.
 
I need love, you need love
We all really need love
All I want, all I need
We all really need love
I need love
 
All I wanna do is give it a chance
Everybody needs a true romance
I would give anything to be with you
I will give you all the love you need
If you only give your love to me
What would I do if I were without you
 
They arrived to the editorial staff of "Seventeen". As they were walking into the building Bryan was pointing and talking about everything he saw. Kian was quiet and looked at everything too. He suddenly felt that this was for real, this was really happening. Nicky thought quietly that Bryan talked for all five of them, which he found qute funny so he laughed. Shane raised his eyebrow and looked over at Nicky.
 
"I just think it's funny that Bryan's talking for all five of us. Y'know we aren't even important. I'm sure that Bryan could have a boyband carrer on his own," Nicky answered Shane's unspoken question and looked cheekily over at Bryan whom suddenly went quite and a bit embarresed.
 
"You can talk too if you want," Bryan the said with big eyes and all the lads laughed.
 
To get to the right floor they had to get up two floors so the lads, Ronan, security personnel, PA's and their mananger Louis Wahls went towards the lifts. However as they approched those, Nicky halted. Kian looked curiously at him.
 
"No, no. No way I'm going into one of those! I take the stairs, ok?" Nicky said and started to walk off.
 
Louis was just about to protest when Ronan lain his hand on Louis's shoulder and shook his head. Then Ronan told Louis that Nicky's was frighted for all kind of elevators. Only if the elevator was big and with glass-walls Nicky could get in. It was something Nicky had been having a long time. Louis nooded at Nicky, whom had stooped a few meters away. A security person went up to Nicky and they walked to the stairs instead while the other lads got into one of the elevators.
 
First of all the lads got prepared for the inteview. They put on some clothes the PA's had brought them and a make-up artist put on make-up. Not much, just a little. Mark was confused as he had thought they were just going to do an inteview but one of their their PA's, Emilia, told him that they were going to do a photoshoot before the interview. Mark nodded as he inderstood and let the make-up artist, Paul, continue with his work. After that they went into another room with cameras, lightning, staff and props. A man called Abraham Thunder gave them instructions while Ronan, Louis and the rest of their crew stood aside. The lads had fun at the photoshoot and came with own suggetions. Mr Thunder thought they were a great group to work with. When the photoshoot was done it was time for them to get interviewed by a woman called Miss Green. Her real name was Sandra Green. The lads was a bit nervous for the interview but it worked out great until...
 
"So lads, how's it with your lovelife? I bet that a gang of handsome guys like you can't be single?" miss Green asked.
 
The lads hotch as they didn't like to talk about their personal life with people they didn't know. However, miss Green pushed them as she thought the girls out there deserved to know. After some time Kian said that he had a girlfriend called Claire, which he had been seeing for some time. However, in his mind he hoped that Claire's dad wouldn't kill him next time he was in Sligo because of this. Then Bryan said that he and Mark was single. Miss Green gave them a sly look, which made Mark feel a bit uncomfortable. Then Nicky said that he had a girlfriend called Rebecca but she broke up with him. Kian gave him a pad on the shoulder. Now it was only Shane left so miss Green turned towards him. Shane panicked as he didn't know what to say. He looked at Nicky and then he lied.
 
"I've a girlfriend called Amy," Shane answered. However, as soon as he said it he felt ashamed of himself and wished that he could turn back time. Miss Green was please with their answeres and they finished the interview.
 
(I need love) I need love
(You need love) You need love
We all really need love
(We all really need love)
(All I want, all I need)
(We all really need love)
I need love...
I need love...
I need love
 
[To be continued]

awww shaney you shouldn't lie about your sexuality =[ great add jake! =] xxx

Thanks for the nice comments. :)

I've some new ideas for my next add too!
Btw what'd you think about my song choice?

It has taken some time but now the new part is finished. It got quite long and I like the dialog. I just hope it isn't too much dialog.

Chapter 3, part 2 "Secrets Can't be Buried Forever..."
 
Sligo
Furiously Amy threw the newspaper at the table. She had bought it because she wanted to know a little more about the lads Shane was forming the band with. She could never in a million years guess that Shane would once again use her as a cover story. She paced back and forth and tried to figure out what to do now. Amy was engaged with Mark Wahlberg who she meet on a cafe during her studies at Boston University. She loved him and he had helped her through a devastating break-up with Jamie Downer, a guy she met on college years ago (he was the reason why she didn't wanted to be Shane's fake girlfriend anymore). She knew that there was a bunch of Amy’s out there but she was scared that Shane would want to take her to events and so as a Westside girlfriend. She was 100% sure that Mark would hate that. Amy sighed and sat down on the couch. She picked up her phone and wondering if she should call Shane or Mark. After a moment she decided what to do and dialled the number that was showing on the screen.
 The guys where on their way back to Sligo as Louis had decided that it was vital that they got to know each other better. Therefore they were going to spend some time together in Sligo and later on Dublin. Shane, Nicky and Kian were sharing one car while Brian and Mark was in the other one. They were laughing and Shane pointed out different things from the window for Nicky. He was very interested and Shane found it a bit exciting in some weird way. Then Shane's phone started to buzz. He took it up and saw that it was Amy calling. Nicky, who was leaning over Shane to see things noticed the name on the screen. Shane looked shocked at the phone. He hadn't been in contact with Amy since college as she went to the States. Now she was calling him and it had to be quite important however before he had the chance to answer Nicky snatched the phone.

"Hey! Give it back!" Shane shouted but Nicky had a really cheeky look at his face and didn't seem to intend to give it back.

"Hello, do I've the honour to speak with Shane's girlfriend?" Nicky answered cheekily in the phone while Shane tried to snatch the phone back.

"Err, who am I speaking to?" Amy said taken aback.

"C'mon Nix! Please!" Shane said getting desperate.

"This is Nicky speaking. We haven't met but if we had I'm sure you would be Mrs Byrne now," Nicky continued and Kian laughed. Shane was really upset; he really didn't like this. Then Kian took the phone from Nicky, which placed it even further away from Shane.

"... or you would be the mother to Nicky's children! And not Mrs Byrne either!" Kian said with a laugh.
"Give it a break Ki!" Nicky said and took back the phone. "I'm sorry but Mr Egan has drink a bit to much," Nicky the said to Amy and gave Kian a cheeky look. Kian started to protest but not so seriously. Shane grabbed the opinion and snatched back his phone. Poor Amy was blushing and had almost forgot what she was about to say in the first place.

"I'm sorry A... honey. They're just playing around," Shane said and gave his band mates a sour look.

"Ok, anyway we need to talk about things... and I'm not your honey! I'm about to become Mrs Wahlberg!" Amy said and ended the call. Shane got a sad expression on his face.

"Problems Shaney? You know, we were just joking," Nicky said when he saw Shane's expression.

"Well she didn't think so," Shane said and got silent for the rest of the trip.

Christian O'Gara looked disbelieving at the interview. Today when he was out buying cigarettes, he noticed that Peter Filan's son was at the front cover. He got a bit curious so he bought the paper. Now when he had read through the interview there was one name that got him really upset. It was that blonde bastard Kian Egan who told the press, the entire world, that he was together with a girl named Claire. This made Christian very angry. He was not happy that his sixteen years old girlfriend was seeing this man. And now he made their "relationship" official. He could barely think straight and was cursing loudly. Claire came down the stairs and looked a bit worried at her dad.

"What is it dad?" she asked. Christian turned around a bit his lip.

"This" he said and pointed at the magazine that was resting on the table. Claire walked over there and looked at it. Then he rolled her eyes as her dad begun on that same old sorry about what 18 years old guys really was thinking on.

"Dad, stop. I love him and nothing you say or do will ever change that. Look here, he says, "that he's together with a girl by the name of Claire". Dad, do you know how many persons there's that has that name? E.g. in my class there's another girl by the name of Claire. You know Henry Mort's daughter?" Christian sighed, he knew that she was right but he was still worried for her.

"By the way dad, I don't care if we go official or not with it. I've found my "Mr Right" and that's Kian," Claire said and leaved the room. Her dad stood there and looked shocked after her.

"But Claire..." he started when his wife Anne came up to him.

"Shh Chris. She has made a decision and you should respect it. I know the Egans, it's a big family, they take care of each other and if young Kian gets famous and earn a lot of money it's for the best," she said and smiled at her.

"But you know how it gone with that Amanda girl he was dating. She killed herself," Christian continued.

"She was a drug addict and she hurt Kian much. Now when he gets famous he needs the security Claire gives him."

"But..."

"For God's sake Chris! Let her be happy. She's not our little girl anymore. She's becoming a woman and she needs to take care of her own life. If she gets burn... well it's not our business," Anne said and went back to the kitchen. 'Why must we always fight?' Christian thought and sighed.

London
Five had been training for their UK tour and was now enjoying a good game of pool. J was leading against Abs. He stood at the moment and thought about his next move when Scott and Ritchie stubble in. Ritchie dropped that basketball at the floor and went over to the pool table. Scott announced that he should take a shower and went up stairs. While Ritchie gave Scott some advises J checked his messages. He smiled when he saw a new message from Rebecca. He read it and it told him that Rebecca was coming around. J had already spoken with the security so that they would let her in. He was however a bit uncertain about bringing her here. It was getting serious but J knew one thing; he had fallen hard for her. He thought about the girl he met a couple of day ago. Her alias was Anglez so he didn't knew her real name. She was kind but Rebecca was more special for him that this girl. However, he was a bit worried as he thought that he had seen her before sometime. He got interrupted in his thoughts when Abs pushed a ball down in one of the holes. After that J returned to the game.
 At the same time Scott was on the phone with Jen. She was still in UK with her Anatolia. Scott and Jen chatted for some time and Jen told him that she thought about studying a year here in London. It made Scott happy. He thought that she was a nice person and he wanted to see her more. Then she said that she had read in a magazine about the guy they met a few days ago. Scott tried to remember who it was.

"The tall guy," Jen reminded him.

"Ah yeah. He who was going to be in a boy band right?"

Jen said that Scott was on the right track and laughed. Then she told him about what Nicky, who was also in the band, had said. He had talked about his ex Rebecca. Scott nodded and looked out of the window and almost dropped the phone when he saw the same girl they were talking about walking up the pathway. Jen wondered why he stopped talking.

"She is here! Rebecca!"

"What? OMG, poor Nicky. She's probably there to see J. I wonder how Nicky will take it when it gets official?"

"I dunno"

Sligo

"Look at this! Brian with an ‘i’ doesn’t look cool enough. Is difficult too," Brian sighed.

"You're right... How about with an y? It could be your artist name!" Nicky said and looked at the paper.

Brian nodded and tried to write his name with a y instead. The lads where at Shane's place and was practising to write autographs. Shane had tried three different ways but he still wasn’t pleased yet. Nicky was happy with his first try. However, he had got some practise already, as goalkeeper in Leeds United. Mark found it fun to write a comic guy on the autograph too. Brian had thought it was quite catchy so they had painted a little comic together. Kian had been sitting alone and practising but Brian had dragged him to the other guys. "We are here to get to know each other better," Brian had said.

"Take a look at this Mark. It is nice right?" Brian said and showed Mark his new try.

"It looks cool. Shall we call you Bryan now too?" Mark asked.

"Yeah, that's much cooler than 'Brian'. Sounds a bit old, my teacher at high school was called Brian," Nicky pushed in.

"Ok. From now on, call me Bryan," Bryan said and smiled. The other guys nodded and smiled.

[To Be Continued]

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dad u pain in the arse bloody butt out kian wudn't hurt me stupid plank *runs off to big bro to get him to sort dad out* *mutters i'm 16 not 6 for god's sake* and Egan get ur butt over to me now instead of tormenting poor amy i haven't seen you all day i want a hug fab adds jake

Thanks. I'll try to get back to writing :)

u better i miss this fic

jake u got any adds for this fic? i swear if kian doesn't get his arse 2 see me soon i'll be kicking it or better still my big bro can use ki as a rugby ball ;) ;p

Lol. Don't hurt "blondie", Claire. :p And no I've no new adds. I've been trying to get up with a rough ending for the fic (a tip from a fellow author) but I've nothing. :(

aww tht's a shame i'll do more than hurt that little blonde bastard as my dad calls him if he doesn't come see me soon :p

i'll do more than hurt that little blonde bastard as my dad calls him if he doesn't come see me soon :p

ROTFL! :D

lol he'll have no ears left so he'd better hurry up and come see me

oh and filan keep ur hands and eyes off my man *locks kian away 4rm shane the pain*

oh and filan keep ur hands and eyes off my man *locks kian away 4rm shane the pain*

-shaneslittlestar

shane's gay isn't he? i know he fancies nicky but what's to say he doesn't fancy kian as well have u thought about that?

No... Mm but I like the thought. It will be difficult to implentate though as Kian is together with you. But it would deffo bring up the drama... everyone loves triangel dramas. ;)

exactly just look at my fic if i let you go that's got love complications in it ie:kian having affairs ronan fancying me

Thinking about you suggesting that Shane would fancy Kian aswell... so you're into Shian?